Susannah Constantine has said she has PTSD from reality shows and that her years as an alcoholic have made her younger emotionally.
The What Not To Wear star, 60, took part in I’m A Celebrity… Get Me Out Of Here! in 2015 and Strictly Come Dancing in 2018.
Reflecting on her experience, Susannah admitted that she only did I’m A Celeb for the money, but regretted not having trained harder for Strictly.
Open: Susannah Constantine has said that she has PTSD from reality shows and that her years as an alcoholic have made her younger emotionally
Speaking to SheerLuxe, she said: “I’ll admit it – I have, I’m a star, get me out of here! for the money.
“There was no other reason and I know I was paid more than anyone – poor ITV, I got kicked out first! So I don’t really watch the new shows when they come out.
“I still watch Strictly and every time I kick myself for taking myself too seriously and not exercising enough.
“I remember expecting to become a world-class dancer with two or three hours of training a day. I remember coming home on the second day of practice and saying to my husband, “You know what? I’ve found something I’m really good at and I think we could win that.” I mean how deluded was I?
Reality stints: The What Not To Wear star, 60, attended I’m A Celebrity…Get Me Out of Here! in 2015 and Strictly Come Dancing in 2018.
“I still have PTSD from it – the trauma of ‘I’m A Celebrity’ pales in comparison to ‘Strictly!’ You can absolutely be murdered for your lack of talent on this show.
Susanna became the first celebrity to be eliminated from the dance show with her partner Anton Du Beke, earning the lowest score in samba and foxtrot in the show’s history.
However, she basically said, “It was awful but I made such good friends while I was there. Everyone on this show is the best in their field and it was a real privilege to be a part of it.
“I also struck gold when paired with Anton. We still have a lot of contact and I love him. But I remember him saying the moment someone walked through the door he could tell if he could dance and with me he knew there was no hope!’
Regrets: Reflecting on her experience, Susannah admitted that she only did I’m A Celeb for the money, but regretted not having trained harder for Strictly
Elsewhere, the fashion guru opened up about her alcohol addiction, saying she’s become “someone else” in her 12 years as an alcoholic.
She said: “Thinking about my addiction and my relationship to things like alcohol in the book I’ve learned so much. It wasn’t cathartic or emotional – it was almost like writing about someone else’s life.
“What I’ve come to understand about addiction is that even if you become actively addicted to something, you’re still the same person you were when it started.
“And when you stop, you’re still the same person. In between you are someone else. I now realize that emotionally I am probably much younger than my 60 years because I was an active alcoholic for 12 years.
“But now I’ve come back to who I really am, who is someone who likes to be alone, lives in the country and isn’t desperately social at all. I get so much out of the simple things in life.”
Susannah also spoke about her memories of Princess Margaret, gushed that the king taught her to be an “independent thinker” and that she “couldn’t give up”.
She recalls: “My main memory of Princess Margaret is that she loved to dance. And she was incredibly motherly — a side that no one sees often except for her own children.
“I often think of the picture she took for Patrick Lichfield’s Town & Country, with her feet up and barefoot on the sofa.
“Horrendous”: Susanna became the first celebrity to be eliminated from the dance show with her partner Anton Du Beke, earning the lowest scores in samba and foxtrot in the show’s history
“I also remember taking her to the premiere of Giselle at the Royal Opera House and we were in the royal box. When it was finished I started whistling what you shouldn’t do.
“David – at least I think he was – put his hand on my knee and said, ‘Shhh!’ So I did. But Princess Margaret turned around and kept saying, “Make another! Make another!”
She continued: “She was the one who encouraged me to be an independent thinker, to speak my mind and stand by her. She was quite an outspoken person – except when it came to the Queen.
The crown was her greatest limit. I don’t know if it made her feel constrained or used to growing up in a fishbowl, but she certainly learned to just be herself.
“She had this incredible ingenuity and was so practical and in a lot of ways she couldn’t be fooled. She could sniff a toady from a mile away.”
Royal connection: Susannah also opened up about her memories of Princess Margaret, gushed that the royal taught her to be an “independent thinker” and that she “couldn’t do without it”.
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